Went to Dreamland where we first met, the Clarendon (which is now called The Bradstow Mill) where we had our wedding reception, Carroways Place our first home. Lots of other significant places - the holiday was really good, better than I expected, children were lovely. Now in a huge slump, missing him more than ever, wondering what this life of mine is all about, where do I go from here? Cant see a future for myself at the moment, very tearful today, what am I doing on this planet, without Mike? - after 41 years with the same person, where do I go to from here?? Absolutely no idea!!!!